Can anyone imagine how it is to be..
Neither inside or Outside?
All that I wan is to be at nowhere and disappear..
I wonder if anyone can tell from my looks,
that i'm in pain and drown in confusion...
It might be terminal velocity,
the speed of a girl falling down to a place where she can't be retrieved..
What if I'm stuck here for good..

What do you do with pain so bad that it has no redeeming value?
It can't even be alchemized into art, into words...
into something you can chalk up an interesting experience...
Because the pain itself,
its intensity....
is so great that there is no way to objectify..
to push it outside...
or find its beauty within..
Thats the pain i'm feeling now....