The next day after the party, which is my actual birthday do not turn out to be a good one. However, i had expected it to turn out this way, so i not too disappointed by it.

The first disappointment is when I had an arguement with kelvin in the afternoon when he refused to fetch me over to his place in the afternoon. I dun mind travelling to his place but its my birthday, why cant i have some special treatment from this "BF"???

He give excuses that he is tired bla bla bla, and will oli fetch me in the evening when we go for dinner with his friends.. Well, this is the 2nd disappointment. He is the first bf i seen who dun spend the whole day with gf on her birthday... therefore, in the end, im cried on my birthday and intended to slp the whole afternoon away (same as the last few yrs).

TIm knows about it and its very nice of him to cum over to my place with a cake and a gift to celebrate my birthday.. Very sweet and thoughtful of him!!! In the end, i still managed to make good use of the afternoon by spening the afternoon with him at H.V cafe.

By the evening, i met up with Kelvin and his friends. But im not very happy with him so i also didnt dress up for the nite. What i wear is even more casual than going for my classes.. We had dinner then we went to a ktv pub for some drinks.

He bought me a cake, saying aloud to his friends that i like to celebrate my birthday in this way, making alot of friends and slicing cake on my birthday. This is my third disappointment and provoked me as well. To me, he is indirectly making me feel awkward infront of his friends..

So this is how well my "BF" understand me.. I dun know where he get the idea that i like to celebrate with his friends.. The funniest part is that his FRIENDS are the one who sing the birthday song and he juz keep away the cake after i blew out the candles, saying that everyone is very full, unable to eat the cake. I didnt heard his friends saying that, and i am not epecting them to eat a big portion of the cake. Maybe just a few bites is ok mah. Dun tell me that the stomach of guys is similar to the stomach of an ants. At most if cant finish, i can give it to the waiters and other people in the pubs. However, he just pack it back into the box and ask me to bring it hm.

At this point of time, i can feel the lava flowing out of my volcano le.. I believe his friends can feel the "heat" as well. But i still managed to put a fake smile and place afew cushion and my bag in the middle, separating the two of us.

After we finish our beer, Kelvin fetch me home annd before i get out of his car. He just told me that there are something at the back of his car for me. As usual... a gift to compensate the emptiness feeling in me.

I wonder if he is deaf. I told him more than 20 times that i will appreciate more if he can provides more care and concern to me rather than giving me a gift. Ya, gifts can make a person amile, but it cant filled the emptiness in me.

He dun even see me up to my hm, and drive away once i shut his car's door. After i reach hm, i start a whole series of sms war wit him. He revealed in his sms that he dunnoe what happened to me, but he feel that i had changed alot and even his friends can sense it. Ya, i admit i had changed in term of my mentality. I dun wan to give in to him anymore, dun wan to be a victim of his sacrastic remarks and disrespect for me. How can i believe that he can take gd care of me in the future after we get married.. He is so egoistic and dun show much concern to me.. i scare i will regret if i married him in the future.. But what cause all this changes, and can he blamed me for it?

Everytime i wanted to confront him, he sure avoid it. I dun understand why guys likes to avoid confrontation. Why they can't be a man, face it and solve it.. So it ended up in me keeping everything to myself as he wont listen to me. And once i had enough, ofcos i will throw temper and close the door to my heart.

Haiz. enough of saying abt him le.. my fingers are numb from typing le. What im looking forward is my bangkok trip with the gals. By that time, through kelvin action, i think i can decide on what i want le. This is the final chance im giving him le. If he still insist that im in the wrong.. then.. the everything will be written in history btw me n him....

Your birth date describes who we are, what we are good at and what our inborn abilities are. It also points to what we have to learn a nd the challenges we are facing. To figure out your Birth Number, add all the numbers in the birth date together, like in the example, until there is only one digit.

A Birth Number does not prevent you from being anything you want to be, it will just color your choice differently and give you a little insight.

Example : March 20, 19503 + 20 + 1950 = 1973 = 1 + 9 + 7 + 3 = 20 = 2 + 0 = 2
2 is the Birth Number to read for the birth date in the example.

#1 THE ORIGINATOR
#2 THE PEACEMAKER
#3 THE LIFE OF THE PARTY
#4 THE CONSERVATIVE
#5 THE NONCONFORMIST
#6 THE ROMANTIC
#7 THE INTELLECTUAL
#8 THE BIG SHOT
#9 THE PERFORMER


#1 - THE ORIGINATOR
1 ’s are originals. Coming up with new ideas and executing them is natural. Having things their own way is another trait that gets them as being stubborn and arrogant. 1’s are extremely honest and do well to learn some diplomacy skills. They like to take the initiative and are often leaders or bosses, as they like to be the best. Being self-employed is definitely helpful for them.Lesson to learn: Others’ ideas might be just as good or better and to stay open minded.Famous 1’s: Tom Hanks, Robert Redford, Hulk Hogan, Carol Burnett, Wynona Judd, Nancy Reagan, Raquel Welch, Samuel L. Jackson


#2 - THE PEACEMAKER
2’s are the born diplomats. They are aware of others’ needs and moods and often think of others before themselves. Naturally analytical and very intuitive they don’t like to be alone. Friendship and companionship is very important and can lead them to be successful in life, but on the other hand they’d rather be alone than in an uncomfortable relationship. Being naturally shy they should learn to boost their self-esteem and express themselves freely and seize the moment and not put things off.Famous 2’s: President Bill Clinton, Madonna, Whoopee Goldberg, Thomas Edison, Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart, Orlando Bloom, David Beckham


# 3 - THE LIFE OF THE PARTY
3’s are idealists. They are very creative, social, charming, romantic, and easygoing. They start many things, but don’t always see them through. They like others to be happy and go to great lengths to achieve it. They are very popular and idealistic. They should learn to see the world from a more realistic point of view.Famous 3’s: Alan Alda, Ann Landers, Bill Cosby, Melanie Griffith, Salvador Dali, Jodi Foster, LL Cool J


# 4 - THE CONSERVATIVE
4’s are sensible and traditional. They like order and routine. They only act when they fully understand what they are expected to do. They like getting their hands dirty and working hard. They are attracted to the outdoors and feel an affinity with nature. They are prepared to wait and can be stubborn and persistent. They should learn to be more flexible and to be nice to themselves.Famous 4’s: Neil Diamond, Margaret Thatcher, Arnold Schwarzenegger, Tina Turner, Paul Hogan, Oprah Winfrey


# 5 - THE NONCONFORMIST
5’s are the expl orers. Their natural curiosity, risk taking, and enthusiasm often land them in hot water. They need diversity, and don’t like to be stuck in a rut. The whole world is their school and they see a learning possibility in every situation. The questions never stop. They are well advised to look before they take action and make sure they have all the facts before jumping to conclusions.Famous 5’s: Abraham Lincoln, Charlotte Bronte, Jessica Walter, Vincent Van Gogh, Bette Midler, Helen Keller, Mark Hamil, Colin Farrell, Scott Speedman


# 6 - THE ROMANTIC
6’s are idealistic and need to feel useful to be happy. A strong family connection is important to them. Their actions influence their decisions. They have a strong urge to take care of others and to help. They are very loyal and make great teachers. They like art or music. They make loyal friends who take the friendship seriously. 6’s should learn to differentiate between what they can change and what they cannot.Famous 6’s: Albert Einstein, Jane Seymour, John Denver, Meryl Streep, Christopher Columbus, Goldie Hawn, Salma Hayek


#7 - THE INTELLECTUAL
7’s are the searchers. Always probing for hidden information, they find it difficult to accept things at face value. Emotions don’t sway their decisions. Questioning everything in life, they don’t like to be questioned themselves. They ‘re never off to a fast start, and their motto is slow and steady wins the race. They come across as philosophers and being very knowledgeable, and sometimes as loners. They are technically inclined and make great researchers uncovering information. They like secrets. They live in their own world and should learn what is acceptable nd what not in the world at large.Famous 7’s: William Shakespeare, Lucille Ball, Joan Baez, Princess Diana, Johnny Depp, Shah Rukh Khan


# 8 - THE BIG SHOT
8’s are the problem solvers. They are professional, blunt and to the point, have good judgment and are decisive. They have grand plans and like to live the good life. They take charge of people. They view people obje ctively. They let you know in no uncertain terms that they are the boss. They should learn to exude their decisions on their own needs rather than on what others want.Famous 8’s: Edgar Cayce, Barbra Streisand, George Harrison, Jane Fonda, Pablo Picasso, Aretha Franklin, Nostrodamus, Jack Davenport, Michelle Rodriguez


#9 - THE PERFORMER
9’s are natural entertainers. They are very caring and generous, giving away their last dollar to help. With their charm, they have no problem making friends and nobody is a stranger to them. They have so many different personalities that people around them have a hard time understanding them. The y are like chameleons, ever changing and blending in. They have tremendous luck, but also can suffer from extremes in fortune and mood. To be successful, they need to build a loving foundation.Famous 9’s: Albert Schweitzer, Shirley MacLaine, Harrison Ford, Jimmy Carter, Elvis Presley, Rowan Atkinson (Mr Bean)

也许你为情所伤、被情所困，但你要懂得：“生气是拿别人的错误来惩罚自己！”无论是感情还是事业，只要做到问心无愧，我们曾经努力过 就足够了！~ 在感情上没有谁对不起谁，只有谁不珍惜谁...


有时候不是上天在捉弄我们，而是我们自己在捉弄自己！~记住不要为那些不愿在你身上花费时间的人而浪费你的时间。爱上不爱自己的人是注定要受到伤害的.....是的，我知道 我们放不下 我们都放不下自己最爱的人，伤自己最深的人``````如果能轻易的放下 那就不叫爱了。不过我们要试着做到“放手”。能冲刷一切的除了眼泪，就是时间，以时间来推移感情，时间越长，冲突越淡，仿佛不断稀释的茶。 让时间带我们脱离痛苦吧！


快乐要有悲伤作陪，雨过应该就有天晴。如果雨后还是雨，如果忧伤之后还是忧伤．请让我们从容面对这离别之后的离别。微笑地去寻找一个不可能出现的你！


人生短短几十年，不要给自己留下了什么遗憾，想笑就笑，想哭就哭，该爱的时候就去爱，不要无谓压抑自己。 命中，不断地有人离开或进入。于是，看见的，看不见的；记住的，遗忘了。生命中，不断地有得到和失落。于是，看不见的，看见了；遗忘的，记住了。然而，看不见的，是不是就等于不存在？记住的，是不是永远不会消失？ 请仔细体味这些话吧.....


既然忘不掉，那就让那些往事默默的留在心底吧，也许是伤心的、也许是酸楚的，但一切都已过去！


爱情不骗人，更骗不过自己。一段感情，与其深埋，不如拿出来清理，丢还是留，给它一个说法，给自己一个交待。想想值不值得，值得的可以去守侯，不值得的不用去苛求！


忘了、放了.... 然后，明明白白上路。去期待属于自己的幸福...

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